Aug. 2
Two weeks out.
This far north
the sun barely touches the horizon
before it rises again.
No wind now for three days.
We have not seen the skipper since friday night,
but we can hear him screaming from his cabin:
"The sea has many gods!"
The sea is oddly calm;
his voice carries for miles.
Aug. 13
No fish.
This morning we dragged up
the bloated corpse of a sea lion.
The first mate stared long at its body
before he decided that it was not a mermaid
and we threw it back overboard.
Aug. 23
The holds are empty still;
our nets drag useless behind us.
Cook says he hears bells in the distance.
He has been drunk for days.
T
i. Island
Morning here is a brightly lit kitchen
where a redheaded woman
drinks black coffee and smokes by the window,
half asleep but eyes open
for the mail boat and for the sun.
Her lips taste like salt.
Things are less real out here;
the walls move with the wind
and light shoots out from the window
to the mainland, where men live, and farther:
to where the sea is distant and the memory of her
is worth no less than everything.
ii. Mainland
Men drown here
at night.
They wake up hours later in soaked sheets,
their lungs still raw with salt.
She knows they're out there,
waiting for that one mistake
An Old Man
He says, "I dreamt of an old man
who travelled back in time to
become himself as a boy."
And the sun older than
he is, older than man
watches him disappear.
He reappears seventy-five years earlier,
but still here,
still with us, and
We let him go.
We let him go and now
he has never lived.
A Girl
Her arms are wrapped around her body.
"The dawn has a shape," she says,
"and a voice, and "
she smiles "it knows my name."
Twisted so tightly around herself
she doesn't even exist any more.
A Funeral Procession
The ships, silver paperplanes,
glide
i. Missing
Here she is
silent;
screamed so much before.
Only echoes, echoes now.
Little girl
with the dry mouth,
waiting for rain.
(Good girl.)
When the voices
come near,
she slips away
remains girl.
ii. Shells
Elsewhere,
in another time:
her totality.
Twenty times larger
than these shells,
celluloid.
She transcends
everything
more:
forgives everything.
(One small gesture.)
Remains.
iii. Beyond the Sea
She moulds clay:
faces of
nameless gods,
skulls of skull gods
not to touch,
only to believe.
Remembers
a place
beyond the sea,
where there is
no water only rock and
no water;
no
i. Zoë
She stops screaming.
She can't even feel it anymore;
there's just his breath on her face:
Tell me how brave you are,
tell me how hard you've been trying.
. . .
Later.
She calls herself Zoë,
spends nights with a girl who is everyone --
washes her clothes, dries her hair.
Closer to earth than to heaven, but holy:
she's got a place for their bodies to meet.
ii. Mary
There is no pain, she says,
I've seen you before,
I know you so well.
Counting the stars,
waiting for morning and the
light, light, light.
iii. Joan
He turned her into this,
into these hands, into these armies.
And when they come for her,
-- we'll se
We have to burn all that now;
we have to deny everything.
We have to pretend that no one died --
even without death I would've forgiven.
* * *
This is where I will start the new age:
I will dress in your colors
and destroy all that was ours.
pink-purple sunrise;
birds sing, children laugh -- I want
to kill, kill them all.
* * *
Watch out!
They're building
walls.
* * *
the girl is silent --
she wants to taste
your skin.
* * *
Sunrise:
drank my coffee
hours ago.
* * *
Sunset:
weatherman talks
of snow.